Last night when he drove me home from school Dad turned the radio on and they were talking about a kind of antibiotic that they don't give people anymore. They said that they stopped using it because it had side effects. The side effect was that it hurt people's hearing and their inner ear, which is what gives you your sense of balance. I think that I get lost all the time because of the antibiotics. They ruined my balance. I can only keep standing up straight by looking around. If I close my eyes when I'm standing up, I always feel myself start to wobble from side to side. It's weird that it took me so long to notice. Anyway, I think that this happened from either the fever or the antibiotics. And your balance is also what gives you the feeling of turning around. I think I get lost because my body doesn't feel itself turning around and so it can't tell where I am without my mind. I have to pay attention and make an effort to see where I am. I always have to look at the street signs and the names of stores when I'm walking. It also helps if I imagine a map and a little "you are here" dot that indicates where I am on the map. I always imagine this little dot flashing like a computer cursor when I am walking around now, whenever I'm in a place that is confusing like in a mall or a library, or at school, or the hospital [I have to go back for checkups], and this is a game [okay, kind of a dumb one] that I can play wherever I am, so that every place is a game. Because I don't want to go back to the hospital and they probably couldn't fix my ear anyway.